Thank you my love for leaving me…
-Have you ever been so in love that exploring the world was just out of your mind? Well, me too and I´m very happy to say that everything has changed. I was born and raised in a town of the north of Argentina, where people are very religious and conservative, where the main objective of the youth is getting marry and having children to meet the expectations of the parents. My family is not different from that and I believe that having an own family is just wonderful for anybody when is fruit of real love.
But, how do we know what is best for us when our world had always been so small and our options so limited? People in love do not think about that, because love makes any place and any situation good enough for anyone, and when I say anyone, I´m including myself… I was dating a man for a year and everything seemed to be perfect, so planning out in my head a wedding and kids was very easy and even pleasurable. Living in that parallel reality made me ignore what was really happening outside and that awful day did not long in coming. He left me. He fell in love with someone else. He actually was never in love with me, and told me looking into my eyes. I think it was the worst pain I felt in my life after my father´s death. A pain that happened to be physical and didn´t let me breathe, a lump in my breast that made me sigh. Sighs of pain because the air was not enough, the words did not reach me, the love my family and friends did not reach me, everything looked black and in the darkness I grabbed all my dreams and I started to bury them one by one. After all, I did not need them anymore if I can´t make them come true.
-How can one single person destroy someone life in five minutes? I wondered while watched the ocean waves breaking on the rock on which I sat. This is something that happens very often, every day, millions of hearts are broken inside people and they always ask why. So, can I actually blame him for leaving me? Then I realized that I can´t blame someone for not love me back. I blame myself for giving someone else the responsibility of making me happy when it depends on me. And I could finally see the gift that the universe was giving to me. Sitting on that rock in the beach of Rio de Janeiro looking at the sea, I knew there was a whole world waiting for me at the other side of the ocean, with opened arms, with infinite opportunities, with millions of people to meet and plenty of situations to live, with a lot of cultures to learn and many lips to kiss. I felt so grateful because I could see the world in one hand and my home in the other.
My home, where real love is, the love of my family, the love of my friends, always there for me every time I have to go back. I never stop traveling since then and every time I start a new trip, I do from Rio´s airport, just to have one day to sit in front the sea and thank the universe for making learn so much. For making me love myself and clean my heart from bad feelings and be the light anywhere I go, sharing my happiness overseas, giving love where is needed. Love is infinite when it comes from a pure soul and you can give it to everybody, even when they don´t deserve because they´re probably who more need it. -Thank you my love for leaving me, I would never experience this kind of love and gratitude if it were not because of you…
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