BRAVERY: “DON’T GO INTO THE WOODS”
How many times had I dived my whole being into something, or someone wanting it to become a success? This is how I felt exactly about my personal life’s journey; but, I didn’t want to go there. I didn’t want to go into the woods. Then, a time came when I finally said “enough, no more illusions”! I was over the lifestyle I was creating or not creating for myself. Each time I thought I was being lead into a career, a relationship or a place to become complacent as home. Nothing had manifested the way I truly wanted things to happen. I mean things were happening but, I wasn’t content with them. I had no idea what I was doing, or where I was going. I had some serious unveiling and unraveling things I had created. I needed to evolve with my experiences. I really had to go deep within myself and ask my soul what it was seeking. I had to go into the woods.
The woods became a symbolism for morphing my truth. I gave up everything; job, potential partner, home, family and friends to find out what my soul and heart were trying to tell me. I literally packed myself up, moved across the country, with what little l salvaged over the years. Then, I needed to find a place; a space allowing me solitude, peace and quiet that would nurture me back to knowing who I am. Well, it didn’t take long for my inner guidance, divine source or whatever one calls getting to know one self; guided me right to a quiet rural horse boarding farm. My good friend offered me free room and board for a while in a renovated barn as her home. It sat off the beaten path surrounded by horses, dogs, geese, a cat and nature. During my stay, I walked and wandered the unknown land discovering a nature trail that paved thru the woods. This was the unveiling my soul was seeking, exposing and expressing for me; to enjoy the fresh air, scenery, awaken my dormant senses, and lighten up my darken mode. Instead, of “don’t go into the woods”; I could not wait, because I was happy being out in the woods. Oh, there were times I was being forewarned to;” be careful there are things that happen to people out on trails”. However, I thought about this warning and took it as a message to be brave, have the courage, and the guts why “don’t go into the woods was so scary.
The woods became a ritual, a sanctuary; I had not only walks in the woods, I stayed and played in the woods, veered off to explore other trails, sat by a stream to write and read poetry. I visited the woods on crisp, cold windy days meditated with the trees. I watched joyfully the animals, birds, and foliage that lived and inhabited the woods. I observed and learned there’s a synchronicity to our life’s natural rhythm; our cyclic patterns are not really any different than natures. We’re all living and breathing beings created by the same divineness, source, or creator. This vitality empowered my heart and soul; wanting it to expand to everything and everyone surrounding me. I could feel the magic arousing my imagination boldly with authenticity and creativity; by sticking it out and going into the woods.
I became like an innocent babe though, not naïve, gullible, lost or afraid anymore of the woods but, revered, wiser, tranquil and reborn. I became no longer the same person who first thought she fought a losing battle with her personal life. Now, I am the woman who knows she can create and experience her life as she pleases. I can appreciate living and loving my days freely with much gratitude; guided by my intuitive divine guidance. I enjoy my moments more often; paying closer attention consciously and mindfully to what I think, say, and do before I act. I act upon using my skillful perception balancing my motives and intentions to what I might cause or effect for the greater good. I understand better I transform with my life’s flow; I can always change or transpire the way I live. I have more confidence and a clearer vision my future will have joy, peace and much love. First, I had to surrender my fears holding onto a life I had no longer serving me. I had to release it all to become who I am. There’s one thing I am certain about the cliché “don’t go into the woods” I will always have a break through within my life’s story. I’ll take a deep breath and venture back into the woods.
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